Thank you for saving me

Dear Mom,

Tonight, I got to meet Karyssa. This is not the first time, but it is the first time since she's been awake. You should see her, she is beautiful, just like the first time I ever saw her. Despite her injuries and what she went through that morning of the accident, she looked beautiful, and still does!

I was very nervous, and I wasn't exactly sure what to expect. Her mom and dad said she's very ornery and loves to joke around, and they were definitely right! She is so funny and sang goofy songs and acted like her old self, according to her parents.

Melinda approached her first, and Karyssa put out her arms to hug her and said how happy she was to meet her. Melinda told her what a miracle she is. I hung back a little because it was hard to hold it together, but I did a pretty good job. I didn't want to cry in front of her.

I went next. I hugged her, and I felt her kiss me on the cheek. What a sweetheart. She looked at her dad and said, "I get to meet the two women that saved me!" It was amazing. She held out her nails and showed them to us and proudly exclaimed that her mom did them for her. Her dad said, "I'll do them next time." Karyssa crinkled up her nose and said, "No way."

It is a complete and utter miracle to see her laughing and joking and giving her dad a rough time, thinking of how far she's come from laying on the sidewalk being given CPR to being announced brain-dead hours later.

She told me she was coming to my wedding, and that we were going to dance together. Can you believe it?

I have often wondered if you were there that day, helping me have the strength to stop and give CPR. I have questioned if you were there to take her away, or if you were there to keep her here on Earth....If you were her angel, just like you are mine. No matter what side you were on, thank you. Thank you for guiding me, and thank you for giving her the strength to fight for her life and to be with her family. I know you were somehow involved in this. In whatever way it was, thank you, thank you, thank you.

I felt you today stronger than I have in a long time. I was scared to go today and almost chickened-out, just too nervous to see her. I didn't know what kind of condition she would be in, and I am pleasantly surprised and believe in miracles because of her. She is so strong, and she is such a fighter, and she gives me the hope that I can be as strong as her to get through things without you. If I am even just half as strong as Karyssa is, I will be able to do this without you.

Even though I feel like some days I am OK and that I will make it, other days hurt just like the day you took your last breath. Did you bring Karyssa to me? Is this what was supposed to happen?

I believe it happened for a reason, and I am positive I needed to somehow be involved. She has brought so much faith to my heart and so much hope for my life, just seeing the strength and hope and determination she has. I am inspired by her, and I know you had something to do with it. Thanks mom.

Even in spirit, you know exactly what I need and when I need it. How do you do that? Even though you are gone, your love still lives on, stronger with each day we are apart. Thank you for saving me.